.can't live without you.

i found out something which is very important to me recently.
my BLOG. I feel my day is not complete without posting anything here.
Perhaps it is good for me. I at least get to express my whatever feelings here rather than bringing it up to bed every night.

Another bad week for me. Only 4 days left in this week. I don't think it will get better though.
Let it be . Let it be. Typing this 3 lil words is easy but it is never easy to do so.
How can i let everything be by itself..? Holding a position like this should not have this kinda thoughts in mind. I always wanted to help and improve them. But people will think that I'm talking craps from time to time.Am i expecting to much from u all? But i thought it is a must. No one thought me but just want to let u all know that u guys have someone to lead u now and please appreciate it. I hate this kinda feelings. It is just 2 months. I cannot imagine how life will be in the next few months? Can i just let them be any how they want?
A simple apologize will be given here. Sorry.
I don't know what is this sorry all about but i think what u all wanted to hear is just this.

Thanks lil penguin for what u have told me just now. I appreciate this kinda small talk. Always do. But i think no one would like to me give some. sigh.
After spending 2hours with them , i feel nothing but numb.
I wish to leave that damn place so damn much. I am a total freak there.
I can no longer stay there for a second. Everything is just so fake. In my old blog i posted an article titled " MASK" . Flip-flops are made of rubber rite? Actually some people do made up of rubber too.

Depression.
Crazy me facing crazy stuff like this and handling everything in a crazy way and i don't even recognize myself now. What am i doing? or What was i thinking?
A slap from u u u and u will be appreciated.

I was searching for photos of me and my buddies in my phone just now but i realize i don't have any of it. A blank wallpaper will just fill up the space.

Today, people in class finally say something and they wanted to change place. i was like WOW. Finally somebody sound out something. If they say it a week or a month ago, i will surely jump up straight away in the class but now... I was like...It's ok.... whatever. anything will do.
What's wrong with me?

Skip my tution and go for a meeting which i am not welcome at all. Worth it or not?
I can't guide my responsibility anymore. And it is guiding me now. A month ago i was guiding it but now it came across me already. A sad thing to share actually.

Sorry if i affect ur mood after reading.

Just feel like staying all alone. I need a sweet escape.