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Have been pretty troubled lately.

Happily chit chatting with my friend swinging my card holder and the next thing I know.. I lost my touch n go card in it. How can one be any clumsier than this? YOUTELME -______-

Had a pretty tough time with a friend who is emotionally "SUPERUBERHYPERCRAZILY" extreme that I couldn't take it anymore. I am literally torturing myself day by day, not understanding why is my emotion being affected by a person who is not even close enough to be called soul mates. You have no idea how much stress I have gone through dealing with her in and out everyday and I even thought I have developed "DOUBLE-PERSONALITY" which I need help from a psychiatrist. CRAZEEEH! This is really the second time having a crazy challenge to my patience level man. Don't you even dare to come and take the third spot, IMSERIOUS!

Back to serious business, studies.
I have learned so much from doctors and patients for the past few weeks, not only medical related knowledge but also about life. How much can one give in to the community? How can a person change the world? You are only a doctor, how sure are you that every advice you have passed on to the patient they will bare in mind and practice it? Does the outcome matters so much? and does it really hit you in your life if things just don't work out? Feeling unethical if I were to share my patient's story in the social media but yeah, just sharing my filtered thoughts. Don't be too harsh on yourself! We are only human, there are times when you should let things go and life could be better. Never afraid to give it a try because you will never know how it changes your life, for better or worse ... You are still living, there is always a second chance. Redo things and make yourself happy. Nothing in this world that is more important than keeping yourself physically and mentally healthy (:

and one last thing,
I don't wanna stay away and yet I don't wanna get any closer. How? This is terrifyingly confusing.

.HMMPH.