decision making confusion

been having this on and off thoughts and I just want to write it off my mind.

why does it feels like 'the road not taken' scene all over again
it's like there goes another stage of your life where you need to make A major decision,
which clearly decides your future.
just like picking up your major in university, you know what i mean?

I mean, I am happy that I have come so far in life that I have not put myself in any trouble, yet.
I'm thankful for that.

but on the other hand, what do I really want?
How am i suppose to know what I want now and what I think I want in 5 years time will be the same 5 years later or 10 or 20. I don't know.

I am a total opposite of a risk taker.
I can't take risk. I always play safe.
Be it at work or personal life.
There is so much risk and responsibilities to bear for making the wrong decision now for the future.

but to be honest , the only person I gotta answer to in the future is myself. 
and there goes the inner struggle, the beginning of my daily inner struggle.

transition in between stages of life

.   tough   . 

at times, I just got so lazy that I decided not to think and avoid all my problems thou I know it's not going to help but I just in this total denial stage. Because I know I can't help myself now. Thinking about making wrong decision and may not live up to the life I want in the future is just creeping me up. Sometimes or maybe all the time, the "partial/full" perfectionist in me who doesn't allow a single mistake in life killed me softly, it's an ongoing murder. Slow and steady. and the worst thing is ...?

I, myself allow it to happen. 

OH CRAP

what should I do?