Sitting at a corner reminding myself each and every time when I have the time to think... To be contented.
But, HOW?
Telling everyone I am very blessed in every way?
Pray to god?
Write a letter to my future self to remind myself again?
or rather..
Enjoy every second of my life and never forget to smile?
To be contented... it is an art awaiting for me to master.
I can be feeling very blessed this weekend and the following weekend, stress might caught me up in the middle of the way and hunt me down. Is this the true way of being contented?
I don't know, you know, really.
I hate this part of myself that always push myself to the corner of the room and as if there is no tomorrow but the truth is, there is no end of the world. I just need to overcome this side of me and stop it from controlling my emotions. If you all have known me well, I have very low EQ though it has been improving for the past few years but still not up to the -everythingiscool- standard,you know?
On the other hand,
I always count my blessings that I am not handicapped or retarded. I am born in a fairly happy family without needing to worry about life. I was given an okaynotsodumb brain and my mum managed to finance me into a local medical school which fees causes a bomb. I am a pretty good girl (CHEH,self proclaim pulak) , so far have not make any serious mistakes in life and have not been a top form rebellious kid. I helped out in the house and take cares of everyone. I am pretty okay.
So, am I contented in life?
... with the summary of my complaints and blessings in life?
BALANCE is the word for my solution, maybe?
You tell me (:
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